My journey is starting at 296.0 lbs. of blubber. It sucks. I feel greasy and fat and nasty (yum, right?).I never had a bad self-image, which is how I think I let this get out of control. I never cared what people thought of my weight (no - not even "deep down" - you psychologists). I was always comfortable with my body and the way my clothes fit and the way my face looked. I didn't realize how much weight I was putting on. I think this happens when you have an eating disorder.
For instance, bulemics or anorexics look in the mirror and think, "I'm a cow!" I, on the other hand, looked in the mirror and thought, "I look okay!" Now, when I look in the mirror I think, "MOOOOOOO!!!" All joking aside, I can feel the strain this weight is putting on my body. When I get up in the AM my back hurts. When I climb stairs, my knees creak and I feel like I'm going to pass out from lack of oxygen (think wheezing 80 year old smoker).
I remember the first time I ever went on a "diet". I was in fifth grade and my mom and I decided we both needed to lose some weight. We would eat healthy all week and allow ourselves a "cheat treat" on the weekend. It was awesome! The first week I lost 11 lbs. Can you believe it?? 11 LBS!! I am only hoping to be half as successful this week! I will be using the "cheat treat" method right now because I know myself - if I can't have ice cream sometime, I'll die! However, I will only allow myself that "cheat treat" if I make my goal (which I'm setting for myself).
Put on your seatbelts and come along for the ride!
GOALS (Week of 5/18)
~ Lose 7 lbs.
~ Drink 64 oz. water per day
~ NO sugared drinks (i.e. regular soda, juice, etc.)
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